You’re his guardian; you signed up for this.
There is something about Fiona & Lip Gallagher fighting that rips my heart apart whenever it happens. Thankfully, in the past six seasons, they haven’t had that many fights, but when they do it can feel as if the whole world is coming undone. Although none more than this one. This fight was about something.
“I turned my back, for, like, two seconds, and now my life is ruined? How is that fair?”
Before now Fiona never wanted to believe she was anything like either of her parents. Where they left she stayed. Where they were chaos she was still chaos, but less so. In so many ways Fiona has had to grow up faster than the rest of her siblings, but in doing so, she missed a lot of steps crucial to growing up. Fiona made the mistake so many of us have made ourselves, she believed she had it all figured out when that couldn’t have been further from the truth.
Liam almost died and that was all you–all fucking you.
I can’t help but to wonder if Fiona had any idea what being a guardian meant would she have signed her life away quite so hastily? As the events of season four and season five played out it became quite clear that Fiona had yet to fully grasp that she was no longer just her siblings sister. I imagine for her she naively believed life would continue to go on as usual with Lip & Ian helping out the way they always had. Nothing would be different. She was their sister before and she is their sister now. In Fiona’s mind becoming their guardian was only a means to an end and nothing more.
“So that makes me almost 25. Still at home, taking care of the kids.”
Lip, however, knew the truth or rather he knew understood that being responsible for someone else as their guardian entailed a lot more personal responsibility than either of them were ready for. But Fiona chose, no matter how naively, to take on those responsibilities whereas Lip knew he didn’t want them. By this point, he had only been gone from the day to day chaos of the Gallaghers for a short while, but you could see the look of fear in his eyes at the thought that if Fiona wasn’t there anymore he would be the one required to take her place.
While it’s true that he was also worried about Liam and scared of the thought of what might have been it would be naive of us to believe he wasn’t also worried that the future he had just started to believe in may not be possible.